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Steven Fan 29. sij
worked out the energy blockage in my throat and finally there is nice flow in my central channel 🐍⚡️
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Steven Fan 29. sij
Odgovor korisniku/ci @_StevenFan
i did this, not through meditation, but by engaging with an opportunity to use my voice and growing into what the role asked of me: being frank, managing conversation sometimes with a hard-nose, being stubborn, advocating for action, giving voice to my emotion (sulking once)
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Steven Fan
I'm absolutely a go with the flow hippy who is content with folk expressing themselves and interacting with each other in the way they want. Also, I love to listen, validate, be empathetic. But to conduct the orchestra you need more than that.
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Steven Fan 29. sij
Odgovor korisniku/ci @_StevenFan
So it's been fun getting taking up the reins of group flow and directing folk. I've gotten pretty good at within this team. So even though this arrangement is ending, I'm feeling like I've got an expanded tool box when it comes to ... whatever it is I should call this.
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Steven Fan 29. sij
Odgovor korisniku/ci @_StevenFan
I want to note I used to be historically the quite kid, even with my close friends. Using my voice has been one of my most impoverished facets. It's been in development for ~8 years, but the thing that's healed it the most is seeing my voice truly made a difference.
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Steven Fan 29. sij
Odgovor korisniku/ci @_StevenFan
A few observations for the energetically inclined: I had kriyas starting in my toes and hips along with emotional purification when I started meditating ~7-8 years ago. I would describe a kriya as a myoclonic jerk with connection to the emotional-energetic system.
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Steven Fan 29. sij
Odgovor korisniku/ci @_StevenFan
Within the past couple of years, a lot has come together for me in life and from an Insight perspective. I can't really chart a linear path, but the kriyas moved upward. [I had a brief period of funny wandering left arm during sitting practice, kept smacking myself.]
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Steven Fan 29. sij
Odgovor korisniku/ci @loremgibson @Noah_il_matto i 3 ostali
Then sitting one day at SPUDS with my dharma peeps I had the floor. Suddenly it felt like I was punched in the neck and I had this massive kriya jerk my head on a pivot left. [SPUDS crew shoutout :) et al.]
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Steven Fan 29. sij
Odgovor korisniku/ci @loremgibson @Noah_il_matto i 3 ostali
And for months afterward I had this head tic. It would act up during sitting meditation most often. I recollect it would sometimes act up during meetings too.
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Steven Fan 29. sij
Odgovor korisniku/ci @loremgibson @Noah_il_matto i 3 ostali
It's evolved over the course of being in a position to come into my own voice in relation to directing folk. During this time, the kriyas changed too.
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Steven Fan 29. sij
Odgovor korisniku/ci @loremgibson @Noah_il_matto i 3 ostali
The kriyas became localized. I can identify 3 energetic points about the size of my finger that would spasm on the left side of my neck and below my chin.
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Steven Fan 29. sij
Odgovor korisniku/ci @loremgibson @Noah_il_matto i 3 ostali
It took a long time to figure out what the sensations were. Initially they manifested as something closer to pain. (Had me checking webmd😅.) Looking closer, they were highly localized spams.
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Steven Fan 29. sij
Odgovor korisniku/ci @loremgibson @Noah_il_matto i 3 ostali
A final speculation: I was told the left side corresponded to the masculine and the right the feminine. My dad didn't coach me on my emotions as my bro and I were basically left to our own devices. One of the main things I've had to learn was reining in folk and giving structure.
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